Even then I tried 3 more times unsuccessfully to get pregnant on my own.

My friend finally, after attending a check up with me and seeing the disappointing results, said why do you keep doing this to yourself when I can help you.

Her words rang in my ears for months. It wasn't until my husband and I attended an infertility seminar that we realized it didn’t matter how we made our family that we just wanted to have a family.

I went to my friend that night, the conversation still brings tears to my eyes...2 months later we were pregnant.

Was it the easiest thing to pursue no, as a woman to let go of a dream, a dream of a pregnancy you worked so hard for, it was heartbreaking. However it was incredible journey, a breath taking experience, one we will never forget.

Miraculously, a month after my son was born I became pregnant naturally. People say they hear this happening "all the time" but I never imagined it would be me, not after everything we’d been through.

I delivered our baby girl by c-section after 4 days of labor and no progression of the cervix; she is beautiful and perfect just like her brother.

My best friend stood by my side for those 4 days while my husband was away at training academy and couldn’t return. She stood by my side during delivery and it was she who reversed the roles and took our baby girl into the same nursery where 9 months earlier I walked her brother in to our awaiting family.

I tried to induce lactation with my son, but hit a wall when I had an allergic reaction to the lactation meds, so it was my goal to successfully breastfeed my daughter.

Our baby girl is now 3 1/2 months old and is exclusively breastfed. I cherish those moments with her, seeing her huge toothless smile and big blue eyes anxiously awaiting her meal while her big brother with his ice blue eyes and sleepy grin plays near by.

There were so many times I doubted myself, doubted my existence, I now know why I had to struggle, it was for these two beautiful babies.

Not only was I blessed to have one baby but now I have two...and I wouldn't have that with out my best friend, I know this in my heart.