Originally: Mrs.R's My Amber Rose...

[CaptHeather]

Mrs. R
Amber Rose...in my heart forever


Reged: 03/17/05
Posts: 21035
Loc: Phila., Pa My Amber Rose...
#42361 - 08/12/05 06:41 AM Edit Reply Quote Quick Reply



That is her name, we lost her yesterday...

What a nice place for me to introduce her, she will always be in my heart and I pray someday to meet her tiny soul...

There is a song by Celine Dion that I would like to dedicate to her:

Fly

Fly, fly little wing

Fly beyond imagining

The softest cloud, the whitest dove

Upon the wind of heaven's love

Past the planets and the stars

Leave this lonely world of ours

Escape the sorrow and the pain

and fly again.

Fly, fly precious one

Your endless journey has begun

Take your gentle happiness

Far too beautiful for this

Cross over to the other shore

There is peace forevermore

But hold this memory bittersweet

until we meet.

Fly, fly do not fear

Don't waste a breath, don't shed a tear

Your heart is pure, your soul is free

Be on your way, don't wait for me

Above the universe you'll climb

On beyond the hands of time

The moon will rise, the sun will set

But I won't forget.

We love you, little Amber Rose

[CaptHeather]

Mrs. R
Amber Rose...in my heart forever


Reged: 03/17/05
Posts: 21035
Loc: Phila., Pa Re: My Amber Rose...
#42390 - 09/05/05 03:51 PM Edit Reply Quote Quick Reply



I was 18 weeks and 5 days when I recieved a routine U/S which revealed pockets of fluid around her vital organs, indicating she was not thriving.

An amnio confirmed our worst fear as it confirmed the DRS suspicion of a fatal diagnosis of trisomy 21, commonly known as Downs syndrome.

Our baby was already in heart failure when the placenta began to tear away from the uterus...

It all seems very surreal to me now, I guess with each passing day making it like a far, far away dream. I have to believe that for now, in order to move forward.

I don't mind talking about her, I am glad that even though she never arrived where she was supposed to be, that there is a special place where I can share her story. I want people to know of her...

She was here.

[CaptHeather]

Mrs. R
Amber Rose...in my heart forever


Reged: 03/17/05
Posts: 21035
Loc: Phila., Pa Re: My Amber Rose... [Re: MamaPigg]
#855270 - 02/05/07 08:23 PM Edit Reply Quote Quick Reply



Just stumbled upon a message with purpose for my daughter, knowing that I love her and miss her so..

I thought of you and closed my eyes
And prayed to God today.
I asked what makes a Mother
And I know I heard him say.

A Mother has a baby
This we know is true.
But God can you be a Mother
When your baby's not with you?

Yes, you can He replied
With confidence in His voice
I give many women babies
When they leave is not their choice.

Some I send for a lifetime
And others for a day.
And some I send to feel your womb
But there's no need to stay.

I just don't understand this, God
I want my baby here
He took a breath and cleared His throat
And then I saw a tear.

I wish I could show you
What your child is doing today.
If you could see your child smile
With other children and say

"We go to earth and learn our lessons
Of love and life and fear.
My Mommy loved me oh so much
I got to come straight here.

I feel so lucky to have a Mom
Who had so much love for me
I learned my lesson very quickly
My Mommy set me free.

I miss my Mommy oh so much
But I visit her each day.
When she goes to sleep
On her pillow's where I lay.

I stroke her hair and kiss her cheek
And whisper in her ear
"Mommy don't be sad today
I'm your baby and I'm here."

So you see my dear sweet one
Your children are OK
Your babies are here in My home
And this is where they'll stay.

They'll wait for you with me
Until your lesson is through
And on the day that you come home
They'll be at the gates for you.

So now you see what makes a Mother
It's the feeling in your heart.
It's the love you had so much of
Right from the very start.
(Jennifer Wasik)

[Nipple_nectar]

Lastly, my most painful stop and at the same time, my only sanctuary. Bittersweet, I know.

Last August, I comemorated my daughter's anniversary by getting a beautiful tattoo.

http://s64.photobucket.com/albums/h199/dovemeetsarcher/beachvacation07049.jpg

As August approaches my mind wanders for an idea this year, I want to do something special.

[mom_of_twins]

the poem with the conversation to god melted my heart. All I could think of was my son Brady... i just wanted to say it was beautiful and it helps me to think he feels the same way