Originally KirstynsMommy's Our loss

[CaptHeather]

I'm finally ready to share. Ok so in 2005 my cousin, my best friend found our she was pregnant, We were all so excited! Esp. me- I was chosen to be the Godmother! Well she went through the entire pregnancy with absolutely no complications! At almost 5 months we found out she was having a perfectly healthy baby boy!This was everything she and her husband wanted!What was even better was her sister was pregnant too! They were a week apart. Everything was all ready for him. I went up to spend the day with her the day before her scheduled c-section...God its just hard to think about that day, nothing sad happened its just, we were so excited. I held that belly like every time she'd come by me. (He was breach by the way-reason for C/S) Well I went home, had to get some sleep, I was wafting on that call in the morning. Well I got up around 8 am got all ready, picked the outfit I wanted my Godson to meet me in, seemed like forever I waiting on the call, well at about 9 I got it, It wasn't from my cousin though, it was her mom-she was crying. "Vae. we cant find his heartbeat"....... Ya know maybe he was in a weird position, no big deal they will find it. SO I go down to the hospital , I go to walk in her room but I have to wait...weird cause were so close. I never have to get out. Well I wait while they do an u/s . I waited forever! alone in that room, it was horrible. Well her step father finally came in. He had a very serious look on his face but was quiet. Then finally I asked him and he said "she lost him" SO I immediately go down into her room, my cousin... I pause in my typing because its so hard to put how it felt. I've never experienced something like this. I went and I just help her put my hand across her belly, holding it one last time. How could this happen to her?!? She suffered one miscarriage before this, she did not deserve to carry 9 months and lose him. makes no sense! Well after the C/S we waited so long for, they let him join us in the room. Such a perfect little boy. They said he had been gone for about 3 days. The cord had been wrapped around his neck 3 times and knotted. 5 LBS, 17 in. beautiful. They had to hold my cousins arms around him, to see her in pain like that....hurts so much. Well being the picture freak I am I took pictures, I had to, this is my boy! Nannies boy! The hosp. gave them a cam. to take pictures but they are not up close and personal like mine. I'm so glad I took them, even though it wasn't easy to ask her if I could. So here's a montage I made for her. Don't worry she loves when I share him. I am so glad she is able to talk about him, we joke about how bad he would have been, how gorgeous he is, how healthy and smart he would have been from breast milk!*I forgot to add. They are trying again now, NO luck yet but please keep them in your prayers! :)so here's the video, enjoy. Their are some pictures that may be too sensitive for some people.

Joshua Louis (http://www.onetruemedia.com/shared?p=24a41ba515e511d4397e5e&skin_id=0&utm_source=otm&utm_medium=text_url)