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10-19-2007, 12:57 PM
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Kristen
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Reged: 03/19/06
Posts: 1738
Loc: California Difficult time
#1241029 - 06/01/07 10:13 PM Edit Reply Quote Quick Reply
My son, Cole, is nearly 2 months old and is perfect in every way and I am so thankful for that but I have this huge sense of guilt...
I lost my first baby boy, Scott, when I was 22 weeks pregnant back in March 2006. Which was the hardest thing I have ever been through, but now I am having a hard time with feeling guilty about having Cole here. He is here to feel my love, to get kisses, hugs and I can watch Cole grow. I feel cheated, now more then ever as I watch Cole grow and realize that I should have been able to watch Scott do all these things as well...
I don't know it really doesn't make sense when I write it all down and read it, but the feelings are real and very hard to deal with right now.
I am so happy to have Cole here with me but it makes me miss Scott that much more.
Kristen
Member
Reged: 03/19/06
Posts: 1738
Loc: California Difficult time
#1241029 - 06/01/07 10:13 PM Edit Reply Quote Quick Reply
My son, Cole, is nearly 2 months old and is perfect in every way and I am so thankful for that but I have this huge sense of guilt...
I lost my first baby boy, Scott, when I was 22 weeks pregnant back in March 2006. Which was the hardest thing I have ever been through, but now I am having a hard time with feeling guilty about having Cole here. He is here to feel my love, to get kisses, hugs and I can watch Cole grow. I feel cheated, now more then ever as I watch Cole grow and realize that I should have been able to watch Scott do all these things as well...
I don't know it really doesn't make sense when I write it all down and read it, but the feelings are real and very hard to deal with right now.
I am so happy to have Cole here with me but it makes me miss Scott that much more.