My keep me going thread [Archive]

Myself

10-22-2007, 10:36 PM

just for kicks and grins and procrastination's sake I wrote out what the rest of the program is going to be (I convert it to what the timer on my treadmill will say instead of 90 seconds of running etc)

I also figured out how fast I'll have to be running to be able to finish the program timewise and be running the 3 miles. It's a lot faster than I'm running now. I'm ok with that too, I don't want to make it too hard and make me quit.

I should be finishing the program around Thanksgiving, giving me until New Years to be able to get running the 3 miles 3 times a week regularly so I can start "speed training" Yes, it quotes because speed is not the accurate way to describe how I run.

I know I'm going to need to come up with a mid-way goal between January and May. I think in little chunks a lot better than going from where I am at now to running the race for the cure in May.

I will come back and post when I finish my run tonight even though it's late and I have clinicals. I will do this.

Myself

10-22-2007, 11:11 PM

So apparently I'm a bit insane.

Keep in mind that I'm not sure where my inhaler is. I had decided to "see" what it was like to run as fast as I'm suppose to. I managed to do it for the 90 seconds, walk the 90 seconds and jog the 3 minutes. I may have been able to push on farther, but I decided it wasn't wise with my MIA inhaler.

Good thing I'm giving myself from January to May to be able to run the 3 miles in a decent pace.

Also, above I was a little wrong. Thanksgiving I want to be able to run 30 minutes. By New Years I want to be able to run the 3 miles (no matter how long it takes)

I'll run again tomorrow.

zinkemomx2

10-23-2007, 06:46 AM

I am so proud of you for doing the C25K. It inspired me to jog when I was on the treadmill the other day. I think as soon as I get into the groove of what days I am going to be able to walk then I might just try it. Of course I have been saying that for a few weeks now but I have a feeling it will happen soon.

I think you are doing a great job. Work on the distance first and the speed will come naturally.

Also a big :hug: just because you deserve one.

The_Babycakes

10-23-2007, 07:32 AM

Wow, running is a great way relieve stress. Keep up the focus and motivation, you're doing great!

Stella

10-23-2007, 10:35 AM

I think you're doing great, Myself. Very inspiring to me. You may not think so, but you are. Setting long-term goals is wonderful.

Myself

10-23-2007, 10:03 PM

Thanks stella, and you are right I don't feel inspirational right now at all. Sometimes it's nice to know you are wrong LOL.

Myself

10-24-2007, 05:17 PM

We had a field trip to the swimming pool today and while it was a ton of fun, it was exhausting. Of course, today is Wednesday so I'm going swimming with the kids too. Oy.

Different kind, I'm not *exhausted* after being in the water with them, just worn out. However, I'm starting out at exhausting today.

I am wondering about finding a way to go swimming in the mornings though.

Myself

10-24-2007, 05:44 PM

So, the pants I bought a few weeks ago don't fit. I've only lost 1-2 lbs since I got them but either they stretched or I shrunk. Excuse the squished boobs, I'm heading out to the pool for this one (see above)

July/August-ish

http://img.photobucket.com/albums/v297/michar/DSC_0007.jpg

October 9th showing how much I really need new clothes.

http://img.photobucket.com/albums/v297/michar/Weight%20Loss/10090702copy.jpg

http://img.photobucket.com/albums/v297/michar/Weight%20Loss/10090703.jpg

Today (ignore the white space, DS had the camera on a big angle) wearing the pants I bought shortly after the pictures above. I swear, they fit well then. Do new jeans stretch after you first buy them? Am I freak? Ignore the glowing whiteness too.

http://img.photobucket.com/albums/v297/michar/Weight%20Loss/10240708.jpg

zinkemomx2

10-24-2007, 06:02 PM

You are looking great Myself!

Baobab

10-24-2007, 06:07 PM

You look great! I bet you've lost weight, but gained muscle from your increased exercise and that is why you are smaller but it doesn't show on the scale. Your committment to running the race for the cure is inspiring. Running can be a bit intimidating in the beginning, but it really does become a bit addictive! As Zinkiemom said, focus on your time/distance goals and the speed/form will naturally improve. I've never done the C25K program before but I hear it is great. I know it includes a lot of interval training and that will naturally help you to increase your speed. I'm a pretty avid runner and used to run competitively, so if you ever want any tips, advice or encouragement, just let me know.

The_Babycakes

10-24-2007, 06:16 PM

Looking good there woman!! I see a BIG difference. Keep it up!!

steph76

10-24-2007, 06:28 PM

You look GREAT!!

hollydawn

10-24-2007, 10:33 PM

Wow, Myself!! You look great!

Great job!

zinkemomx2

10-25-2007, 10:06 AM

I need to thank you.

THANKS!!!!

You have inspired me to use my treadmill for more than a closet. It is being used and gasp, I even ran for a few moments.

Keep up the great job.

StElmosFire

10-25-2007, 12:26 PM

You are doing so good!
You look fantastic. :D

Keep it up mama!

Myself

10-26-2007, 06:23 PM

emotionally, I'm taking the rest of the week off.

I'm still going to try to make wise choices but I'm not going to measure or count anything. I'm sending the kids to a friend's house tomorrow night so DH and I can chat and I'm confident that will be just ugly.

Barbarella

10-26-2007, 09:21 PM

:hug: You look great, by the way. :)

zinkemomx2

10-27-2007, 08:14 AM

I think that is a great idea to get rid of the kids for the night. We got rid of ours for the entire weekend and I think DH and I need to chat. We probably won't as he seems to think the free weekend was so he could get lots of sex. NOT!

Lots of hugs and good thoughts coming your way during your very difficult time.

Myself

10-28-2007, 11:49 AM

I just thought I'd share that I'm currently wearing a size 12 pair of jeans that fit me *perfect*

Baobab

10-28-2007, 11:55 AM

Yay for size 12! I think I'm hovering around that size too, but I'm afraid to officially try it out.

I hope that the talk with your dh went well. I'm sending you vibes for lots of physical AND emotional strength!

Myself

10-28-2007, 11:59 AM

Chatting with DH went so much better than I expected. Especially after he called me a couple of times yesterday at work yelling that he wasn't going to go and wasn't going to listen and then hung up on me. *sigh*

steph76

10-28-2007, 05:11 PM

WOOHOO on size 12 !
hopefully you and your dh can work out any problems you are having

Myself

11-02-2007, 12:29 PM

So, I've hit that 2 month point where you want to fall off the wagon. It's really been between 2 and 3 months and being sick hasn't helped. I took last week off, and now I'm sick this week so not counting (again, trying to make decent choices but dammit, if I wanted a shake right now I'd get one)

I'm up for any extra support that you guys feel like sharing.

Unicorn

11-02-2007, 12:41 PM

I know exactly what you mean Myself!!

I am very familiar with that slump. You have been working really hard, and then getting sick was a little derailment. What can you do to shake things up a bit? New workout, new healthy recipe that you haven't tried before? I have found that something as simple as new exercise clothes can help me get the motivation going again.

You are doing fabulous! It is hard to be consistently dedicated every day, and you have been doing that very well. also, with being sick, everything just seems so difficult, it is totally natural to want to go back to the old "comfortable" ways, especially with eating. Keep your chin up, and I hope you feel better soon!

Stella

11-02-2007, 12:49 PM

Are you going to WW meetings, Myself? I went this morning. She talked about non-scale victories that you can celebrate. You're showing a 20+ pound loss already (if I remember correctly!) and that's awesome! You're fitting into smaller clothes. You have lots to show for your efforts. You'll find the right thing soon and you'll go with it again.

You can do it! :)

Myself

11-02-2007, 03:09 PM

I'm not going to WW meetings, they only have them mornings I'm in class. Honestly, I'm not I'd do well with the whole meeting thing anyways.

I do have a friend who is also doing WW but she's having a stressful time right now so I'm not going to bother her with my lack of motivation.

I do think I'm going to go find me a pumpkin shake somewhere in town, maybe eggnog. My stomach does not feel well and egg nog shakes take me back to my Mom taking care of me when I'm sick.

Myself

11-05-2007, 10:50 PM

Dammit, I'm hungry at night again. :(

I had a light breakfast, small sandwich for lunch (with a cookie, bad bad me) and was satisified (definitely not stuff) I had a good dinner (chicken, wild rice, corn) and then I got very hungry craving fatty non meat proteins like peanut butter/cheese/etc. I got through it, but honestly how long is this going to go on? When does the roller coaster of eating healthy smooth out?

BTW, I'm not hungry now (I did have some cheese) but earlier it was nearly unbearable and I couldn't get my mind to disconnect from it.

Unicorn

11-06-2007, 09:30 AM

WTG on size 12! That is fantastic!

The_Babycakes

11-09-2007, 11:34 AM

I hate that Myself! It's like no matter what you do you just can't tune it out. I know it's rough right now and it sucks, but as you said it is a roller coaster and it will get better. I am in awe of your determination and success (WOOHOO, CONGRATS ON THE SIZE 12!!!), despite all the stress you are under right now. You are amazing, don't forget that! Just keep on truckin', you're doing great!

Myself

11-15-2007, 10:07 PM

slowly trying to hang in.

Stress is going to be the end of me.

The_Babycakes

11-16-2007, 10:19 AM

Hang in there lady. I know it's a struggle. :hug:

Myself

11-19-2007, 08:42 PM

I'm debating about continuing WW or not. I have tracked in several weeks but have continued to make wise choices and I'm still losing. I know and have known what to eat and what not to eat I just needed some way of being accountable to someone/something.

Myself

11-19-2007, 08:45 PM

Oh, and I just posted more pictures on the debate board but I know that thread will got lost quickly so I'll post here as well.

http://img.photobucket.com/albums/v297/michar/Weight%20Loss/Nov19.jpg

http://img.photobucket.com/albums/v297/michar/Weight%20Loss/Nov19-2.jpg

hollydawn

11-19-2007, 09:19 PM

You look great!!!

zinkemomx2

11-20-2007, 05:22 AM

I love the new haircut and you are getting so slim!

Flutterby

11-20-2007, 05:44 PM

You look terrific :)

Amy

The_Babycakes

11-21-2007, 07:25 AM

Holy shit! You look great! I love that top and the cut. Just fabulous! http://bestsmileys.com/excited/3.gif

Unicorn

11-21-2007, 09:00 AM

Looking Great!!

Myself

12-03-2007, 08:10 PM

Wow, long time no post.

I'm back though, I'm refocused and coming back. Please if you see me not posting for a day bug me to find out why (I think I'm going to need a little extra push)

Today I've had not enough water, not enough dairy, not enough veggies. I'm doing great point wise though LOL. A day I'm working EMS probably wasn't the best day to try to refocus.

I'm also giving up on soda again. All of it, because it's crept back in replacing water for me and I'm not ok with that. I've rarely had a not diet anything but I do think that the soda was making me crave other crap.

I do have some pumpkin spice eggnog sitting here waiting for me to finish my glass of water to drink.

5 points!?!?

*sigh* I need to look for some light eggnog.

Myself

12-04-2007, 08:35 AM

Ugh,

Headed into work I got that queasy I need to eat 10 minutes ago feeling so I stopped at a gas station and picked up a carrot cake thingy (Little Nemo w/o frosting) 22 grams of fat!!! I had no clue, but now I want to cry. I'm still journaling, I could still be fine for the week (thanks flex points) Bad thing is I'm getting that queasy feeling again.

Anyone else get 'morning sickness' on their period?

Myself

12-05-2007, 10:04 AM

I don't have class until late today so I was lucky to be able to come back to the house, grab some breakfast after dropping kids off.

Packet of Kashi 'oatmeal' with a glass of milk. Mmmmm.

I'm so tired and so wiped out, I can't imagine that taking the Midol did it to me but seriously the 'drugged' phase lasted for 6 hours, just how long the midol lasts for.

Myself

12-07-2007, 01:38 AM

Breakfast at the cafe, cookie for lunch, PF Changs for dinner. I don't even know where to begin to track things. Honestly the only thing I ate that was bad was breakfast. I had planned on being 'good' but the portions were HUGE and sooo good.

I'm running tomorrow.

The_Babycakes

12-07-2007, 10:14 AM

Carrot cake is very decieving. I argued with my dh about the 'healthiness' of carrot cake. I don't know about morning sickness, but if you eat late the night before you may feel a little sick the next morning. I'm so glad you are back Myself! Keep journalling, and don't worry if you screw up a little. You have come so far and I know you're gonna keep going until you reach your goal.

Myself

12-07-2007, 11:41 AM

I have a carrot cake recipe that is relatively healthy. This 3" square piece had 22 g of fat!!!!

I'm glad to be back too, it feels safe and secure here.

Myself

12-08-2007, 09:47 PM

I'm baking today, very very dangerous.

Now, I want ice cream. A neighbor brought over divinity and fudge. WTH kind of neighbor who knows I'm trying to lose weight brings over a full plate of stuff?!?!?

Myself

12-09-2007, 09:47 PM

EMS days are so hard.

and my will power is in the toilet for I'm not sure what reason. I've done it before, why am I struggling so much now? BTW, french fries are really really bad for you and leave you with a large amount of guilt.

The_Babycakes

12-10-2007, 10:45 AM

I'm sorry you're struggling. Just do the best you can right now with what you have and it will pass. Drink your water and try to get some excersize in. Don't waste time beating yourself up, rather use that time to focus on doing better the next time around. I promise it will pass, it always does. Hang in there.

Myself

12-10-2007, 01:32 PM

Thanks Babycakes.

Scale didn't move today (which is better than gaining) and I'm feeling a lot happier in general so hopefully this will get me over my hump. Honestly I think I'm going to be happy if I manage to not gain over the holidays. Although with school getting out soon I can go back to my set way of eating without it getting foiled by me sleeping late etc.

Myself

12-11-2007, 09:28 AM

I did decent last night. Not so much as tracking but not making bad choices and not fighting so much with wanting things I shouldn't have.

I am having lunch out with a friend today, but other than that we're going to be at home eating home things.

Myself

12-12-2007, 12:18 AM

I attempted running tonight and it was just pure hilarity. Well, it wasn't tonight it was today I'm journalling it tonight.

I thought I could go back a few weeks on the C25K and be ok. Nope, wrong wrong wrong. I'm starting over, on week 1. I suck, but I still want to do this.

Next semester I have the "workout" class so I won't have a choice but to be in the gym 2/week minimum. I think I'm going to do weights there since I don't have access to weights at home, and running on the days I'm not in the school gym. I may also go more often at the beginning of the semester so that if things get crazy I don't have to worry about it at the end of the semester.

Barbarella

12-12-2007, 01:24 AM

So, you're starting C25K again? I really need to get on that. But, not this week or next week. My head is swimming with Christmas performances.

But, can you give me a kick in the pants in January?

Myself

12-13-2007, 10:48 AM

I certainly can. I don't know if I'll get going on it officially before then either. I think a more realistic thing for me right now is to pull out my treadmill on a regular basis. I've got some kind bug camping out in my lungs and I need to get rid of it first.

StElmosFire

12-13-2007, 02:47 PM

Hang in there! I hope you feel better.

Myself

12-14-2007, 11:53 AM

I'm going off of soda again. I've been drinking diet, but want to see if the caffiene is what is causing me headaches.

I've been upping my water intake, and been watching portions. I'm starting to feel like I'm working towards getting this under control again. I'd like to be down another size by the time we're back in school.

The_Babycakes

12-14-2007, 01:52 PM

Good for you! Keep up the good work! :)

Myself

12-16-2007, 02:04 PM

I'm wearing my new uniform shirt and if I do say so myself, I look good :) I'd look better if I had smaller pants but at a stinking $50/pair I'm going to deal.

Myself

12-16-2007, 08:00 PM

I hurt my back today :(

Myself

12-17-2007, 11:59 AM

Not exercising is making a huge difference. I'm up half a pound this week again. With my back hurting the exercise part is going to be a problem, so I think I'm just going to walk everyday. The chiro helped my back a lot today but I'm still sore.

I'm also focusing on getting all of my fruits and veggies this week. So far today I've the best orange ever. I'll likely have another one later on, I need to be planning out what veggies I eat since I'm not going out to lunch at the salad place.

Milkyway

12-17-2007, 12:12 PM

Awww, im sorry.. Please give yourself time to heal..

Myself

12-18-2007, 10:38 AM

I am only 0.5 BMI points away from healthy. (translates to about 3 lbs)

Well, honestly it depends on which scale I use (there is a couple of pounds difference) but I'm switching to the scale that measures down to the 0.2 lb the other one I'll keep around for the body fat measurement.

Myself

12-18-2007, 11:26 PM

I'm worried about DH. I plugged his numbers into a BMI calculator and his BMI is 35. He is diabetic, has hypertension, and high cholesterol. All things that could be controlled with diet and exercise but instead he's choosing medication that is rough on his liver.

He keeps claiming that WW won't work for him so looking at other things he says we can't afford it.

Bullshit.

We can't afford a funeral right now, and if he got this under control I'd be willing to bet he could stop taking a lot of his meds not to mention if he just gave up soda there would be enough to pay for either biggest loser club or WW or whatever.

Honestly I think he'd struggle with WW and I'm willing to switch to whatever program he chooses to do.

Myself

12-19-2007, 12:36 PM

I've decided that this won't go quietly. If he wants to kill himself with a sedentary lifestyle and unhealthy amounts of food it's going to be a fight. I know I can't make his choices for him, but I can do a lot to let him know that it's not ok to continue the way he is. He's not too far away from morbidly obese and at the rate he's been gaining this year I imagine it would come quickly.

The_Babycakes

12-19-2007, 06:50 PM

That's a tough battle Myself. I have some of the same issues with my dh and I rode him pretty hard and stood firm for awhile, but as most people tend to do, he rebelled and ate even more because I was pressuring him. I realized that as with him quiting smoking (which he did, with no push from me when he was ready), I need to back off and hope and pray he does the right thing.

It kills me when I see him eat 1000 calories in one sitting at a fast food restaraunt, and all the other crap he eats, but as much as I love him and know what's best, I've decided that I can't force him to do something he's not ready for. Maybe you could talk to him about setting a date so you at least have some hope? I also fear that dh isn't going to take his health seriously until something bad happens and by that time it may be too late. It sucks. I pretty much just don't buy or bring any junk into the house. I told him, if you want to eat crap, you're gonna have to eat it when you're out, cuz I'm not buying it. That has helped somewhat.

Sorry for rambling, I've spent alot of time thinking and fighting over this subject. I really wish you both luck and I hope he does get the motivation and drive to change. How's your back today? After your back heals, are you going to do some back strengthening excersizes? Hang in there.

Myself

12-20-2007, 06:39 PM

My back is feeling a TON better, and yup I'm going to start 'tapping again (needed to anyways) It is really important in health care to have a strong back when you are lifting and moving people all day long. It just makes sense.

As for DH, I've taken the laid back road for 5-6 years now, and I've just recently seen a dramatic increase in his appetite, increase in the crap foods he eats, and corresponding changes to his weight. I've told him before "like the dietician said, if you want to kill yourself with food there is nothing I can do about it"

I'm through making it easy on him though.

As for today, we went to Eddie Bauer outlet just looking around and I fit into a size 10!

Then we walked down the strip mall and past the chocolate shop. Bad bad bad mistake. Then we went in the chocolate shop. Even worse mistake.

So, I think a good and realistic goal for me for this holiday season is to maintain.

DH said that in January he would be willing to try Biggest Loser Club, so I'm going to cancel WW and work through whatever plan BLC has. I am happy that they also have workouts because honestly I don't really know what I'm doing in a gym.

Barbarella

12-21-2007, 03:41 PM

I'm glad DH is talking about starting a plan! :clap:

Honestly, I love working out in the gym. Will they have personal trainers available? If so, it might be well worth it to get a few sessions with a trainer to learn the ropes of the machines. I like classes, but I really like lifting.