Why am I so meloncali?

[Joyto5]

I was kind of feeling low yesterday. I know why and there is no reason for it!

I want to have a better day today. It has to do with the U/S. Either way this was going to be our last baby, but not till we found out the sex did it really hit me.

Alright, some background. A fibroid tumor was spotted when We were expecting our 5th child. I totally forgot about it. Was suppose to get it looked into before getting pregnant again. Too late. One reason for the U/S was to see if it was still there. If it was we were going to look into treatment options after the birth. Nothing could be found, really. He did say baby was to big to really see if anything was there. I was prepared for it to be there and was also preparing myself for a hysterectomy. Worst case scenario.

I don't want this to be my last baby now! Not saying pregnancy is the greatest and easiest thing but I think I would miss having little babies around the house. It's probably the last thing that I should be worried about.. I know, it's silly. I'm only 32 with 5.. soon to be 6 wonderfully healthy children.

I'll talk to DH about my feelings later tonight. I don't know if it's the thought of a close to one part of my life I'm not ready to let go, or what.

Thanks for reading this if you made it this far. Just the ramblings of a Mom.

[lovebeingamom]

I feel the same way sometimes thats why I am trying to enjoy this pregnancy. Hubby says we are done I think I am done too but hate to see that part of my life go. I hope you feel better today.

[kohlby]

There is something different about choosing to be done having kids vs not being able to make that choice. All along, we've only wanted 3 kids. (Well, DH actually was set on 2 for a little while in there). This will be child #3. However, no matter what, this is the last child. I'm too high risk and throw in DH's testicular cancer history now and we're definately done. Also, we won't qualify to adopt for at least 5 more years (though I'll be 40 then and DH 46!) - so we're done whether it's a child by birth or by adopton. If something goes wrong with this pg, we still have to be done. I hate that feeling. I am pretty certain three kids is enough for us, but I still hate that I don't get the last say.

[jessiehannan]

In one way I regret not being able to have any more babies. But, three is what DH and I agreed on, and I held up my end of that. I don't think that having any more babies, just because I LOVE babies, is the right choice for me. I still get a little sad sometimes.