Today I Told You...

by Dawn Stewart

My name is Dawn Stewart and my daughter is Zoey Diane, she is now 22 months old and still loving her Mommy milk. Due to some health problems and meds my Dr would like me to take I had been thinking about weaning. Here's what my heart felt about it all. By the way we are not weaning. I hope this might help some other Mommies in the same situation.

That you were a big girl
Trying to convince myself you were ready
That all the strange looks
All that hassles of what I can eat or drink
Or medicines I need, but shouldn't take
And all the hours of being awaken in the middle of the night
All the aggravation of dinner being late
Or not getting that shower in before work
Or never being able to ever leave you without such agonizing scenes
That the pains of hurt I see in Daddy's eyes
When you pull away towards me
I tried to convince myself that all of these things
Out weighed your want
So I told you
That you were big
And big girls drink Cow milk
And you cried
And you said Please Mommy
And I realized how much you needed something from me
That no one else could give you
And I cried because I had decided you didn't need it anymore
When my heart knew you really did
And I have never felt so selfish before in all my life
And I am so sorry
So now today I have decided that you really ARE a big girl
And that big girls do drink Mommy milk
I love you Angel
Mommy