Joe will nurse between pumpings, but the milk is too thin and he chokes on it. Joe has Acid Reflux and it won't stay down. I co sleep and hold Joe as much as possible, even just because I want too. It's the emotional attachment that I don't want to mess up, and as much as we both love to nurse, we really can't. Pumping is the only option. 

I pumped for 7 minutes when I started off, I pumped for 20 this morning (2 1/2 oz !!!!!). It hurts and with Joe nursing too it feels like I've been rubbed raw with sand paper and the nipple cream only helps so much. Right now Joe is still too young for me to go back to work. I'm a single mom and child care is hard to find. I have a very good boy . He's in bed on his own by 9 pm and sleeps through the night, wakes up at 7am. By the time I get Joe fed and settled in his swing for his morning nap it's nearly 8am. Same at night. I have an hour of 'Mommy Time' where I get everything done that I couldn't find time to do during the day. By the time I fall into bed I can barly keep my eyes open. 

AR is Acid Reflux. I talk to my mom alot on messanger and often shorten my words. I am using an Evenflow Elan pump. It's the only one that works, I've rented a few hospital grade and I'm still engorged AFTER I pump. The vaccum isn't strong enough cuz Joe's got a very strong latch. When I nurse, He chokes on it. The BM is too thin and it comes right back up. So I really have no chioce when it comes to pumping. Oh yes, I can feel when I need to pump. I walk around in a sweatshirt most of the time to keep my chest as warm as possible. I massage before I pump and halfway through. I'm going to bust out the heating pad today even with the incress. I pumped 2 1/2 oz this morning. : )