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In need of encouragement ...
Posted On 08/27/2008 21:27:07 by ShawnMattysMama

I'm getting frustrated during feedings because he keeps latching off and on and pulling at my nipple and biting sometimes and he's hurting me! I get so frustrated, he's such a wiggly eater anyways ( I guess it fits that I call him bug ) that I usually have to hold his hand to get him to calm down. I've been having to feed him with a Nursing cover this week (it's very lightweight and 100% cotton so I don't think it's from anything like that) and he gets so mad and starts crying and tries to pull it off of him. The reason I have to feed him with a cover is because I opened my home daycare this week and I don't think parent's would appreciate their provider exposing her breast to their children! haha He's not really sure what's going on either with other kids being here and Mama's attention is not all on him so he's been getting a bit upset and he is really the best baby and doesn't really cry and he has been pretty fussy and just wants me if we are out of the house. Like at his grandparents for example he didn't want anyone to hold him he just looked at me and makes this really sad whining sound with a sad face like he's afraid I'm going to leave him and I feel so bad but I also feel bad if I take him back away from other people who want to spend time with him.

I have tried a nursing necklace but really didn't stick with it so maybe I should try that again. We went through Thrush about two months ago and that was awful and so painful but I continued to nurse him through the pain. I started feeling it coming on again about 2 weeks ago so my DR gave me a script for APNO gel (because my son ended up having a reaction to the gentian violet). It seems to help but usually I have pain during and right after the feeding that lasts a little while and if I don't go put the gel on right away I forget. It is helping me when I remember to use it though. 

I really love nursing him!!!! SO MUCH!! I don't want to give up. I just wish he would stop being so wiggly... I'm in pain and I feel like my DH doesn't really get it and I wish that he would encourage me without me having to ask for it! I feel like he should be saying that he's glad I'm still bf and that he's proud of me for doing that for our DS even though it's painful sometimes.

Thanks for letting me vent........ 



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From: ShawnMattysMama
08/28/2008 10:44:05

Thanks so much virginiajones33!!!! My son just turned six months so that could be exactly it! With him growing and different people being in his home I'm sure he just needs to adjust to it.I just feel guilty when I can't do things for him or with lhim ike before. I'm sure I'll get into the grove and everything once I know all the children's needs and personalities. Once that happens he  and I will probably be a much happier baby and mama. Thanks for the encouragement!

From: virginiajones33
08/27/2008 22:18:25
You're doing great!  It sounds like there's just alot going on in his little world right now.  I think that is he's usually a happy baby then it's just alot of change for him with the daycare.  Their little worlds are so small at his age and consist of booby, mommy, and even daddy is last.  I think that if you stick with it he'll get into the rythm of having other kids around and he'll probably even enjoy it.  He probably hasn't started becoming very mobile yet and that's one of the things that helps expand their world so just hang in there.  No children like the covers! I got one from bebe au lait and it's great for ball games but my son doesn't like it at all, but I'm sure if you continue to use it, just like anything else he'll get used to it.  Also they usually go through a pretty signifigant growth spurt around 6 months and it can cause them to be fussy and clingy at family gatherings.  I took my son the a family holiday around that age thinking it would be fine b/c it usually is and it was hell!  He was miserable with all the people wanted to hold him and give him attention and all he wanted was boob... needless to say we cut it short.
Husband's don't quiet get it, even if they are bf advocates.  You have a connection with your son and breastfeeding that no one else has, and it isn't just his world that revolves around it, I'm sure it's your's too, I don't think a man can ever really grasp the expanse of it.  Just try and understand that and don't expect too much from him in that regard, b/c you'll probably just set yourself up for dissapointment, he most likely wouldn't know where to begin or what to say to make you feel better about breastfeeding struggles.  Just think, one day you'll look back on it all and laugh and you'll have a healthy, strong young man that you were able to breastfeed.
Good luck and God Bless you dear!


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